So the surgery has postponed for two weeks. My 3 times blood test shows
that I am pregnant. How strange when I know that I am not pregnant, it must have been an error during the test, somewhere !
We went home and I felt so tired from getting up very early morning at 5:00
am that morning so I went to bed immediately. I felt the rush of relief from thinking
by now I should have been in the ICU with big surgery scar on my stomach feeling
groggy with strong sedation in me. I know exactly how it feels since I was there
8 years a go. But nothing has happened to me right now, well at least not until 2
weeks time.
I was floating in my own mind between a sleep and waking up trying to relax
when Steven walked in through the door. He finally came into the bedroom and
handed out this pretty little soft greenish book and put in front of my face and on the
bed. I knew it was the Laduree recipe book that he ordered for me. I flipped the
pages looking at the pretty pictures and said 'thank you' to him for buying it for
me.
I love the small gesture from Steven, and the pretty little book that I own now
making me happy and made my life more beautiful in the middle of this health
situation. Steven knows I love Laduree and their macarons so he wants me to
treasure the pretty book.
I love how I feel about my life now even though I have this time bomb
monster in my body that needs to be fixed. Perhaps the surgery and what has happened with my health for the past 8 years has something to do with what I feel.
Life is so precious now and small things became dramatically beautiful and meaningful.
I won't lie that I have my up and down moments but I feel the big change about my
out look toward life. I am more happy toward simple things and cherish our peaceful life together. I feel like I am the luckiest person a live given the condition
of my health, been divorced and far away from my own country, family and my only
son. I can see the big picture of my life that I am destined and grateful to be
here and as they say "everything happened for a reason." It sounds a bit cliche but
I like the phrase. With a strong believe and determination I like to believe that
something good will happen to me in the future.
Laduree, Sucre available at Amazon.com
I am in awe to have received emails, card, phone calls of 'prayers' and 'wishing me well' from relatives and friends. These wishes and prayers can only make me even stronger facing the up coming surgery. And I will take those prayers and wishes to the surgical room with me.
I am in awe to have received emails, card, phone calls of 'prayers' and 'wishing me well' from relatives and friends. These wishes and prayers can only make me even stronger facing the up coming surgery. And I will take those prayers and wishes to the surgical room with me.
From the bottom of my heart, "Thank you so much, and you have moved me in a way that you can not imagine and made me even stronger, thank you!"
Now I have 2 weeks in front of me to blog, be happy and enjoy a normal life with Steven and perhaps my son and my parents will be coming to visit us.
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Thank you for reading !
Just dropping in from the BYW 2.0 forums about photography and wanted to compliment you on your gorgeous photos and those yummy macarons! I have a soft spot for macarons myself! Best wishes!
ReplyDeleteHi Kinga,
DeleteThank you so much ! Please let me know if you are in NYC area. Would love to meet you in person.
Thanks again !
My dear Elly,
ReplyDeleteHope this little note finds you in a good spirit, at least you will try to be happy, that what matters. I tried to read your blog on my free time (you know my company is here). I am glad you have this book, I thought of buying this, but keep postponing it.. you beat me as you already got it!! I am glad you make use of these 2 weeks period of waiting doing positive thing "blogging"... keep writing a positive thing dear.. and I always enjoy reading it... Stay in touch my dear sista....
Uni
Hi Charisma,
DeleteYou should get yourself this book. It is very pretty ! Yes....I still have 2 weeks to blog and so many exciting things to do in such a short period of time. Oh well......thank you again for your prayers !